Venting Just a Little

I never have any luck in the hospital. Every time I go for an ultrasound to find out anything, like the gender, they can never tell me what I want to know. Also, every time I do an aminocentisis, the baby's lungs are never ready and we have to wait. It's so frustrating and makes me hate having tests with a passion, which is even more than the usual amount of hate for tests!

We went to the hospital this morning hoping and thinking we were welcoming our new baby girl into our lives and now are experiencing deja vu of when we thought we were going to have Braxton. The amino needs to have a score of 50 in order for them to be sure the lungs are developed. The doctors told me how common it is for babies to score a 50 and how girl's lungs develop faster than boys. But I've never scored that high. We did two aminos with Braxton and neither were even close. However, we were pretty sure it would happen today, but no, we only scored a 29. Not even close. Shame on me for not remembering that tests never go the way I want and having hope. They want to do the same thing next week, but because our number was so low, I really don't have any expectations that we will make that big of a jump to score a 50 in one week. Basically, this means I may be waiting 2 weeks and having my baby on the worst day possible for the whole year--my sister's wedding day!

Yeah, I'm just venting a little and will be over it in a few days. But, it is so disappointing to spend a sleepless night of nerves, followed by a long morning of anticipation, and ending in low spirits and a sore stomach with contractions from the procedure. I hate this whole process and can't wait until it's over and we can have our baby here.